Last Entry...

... as a civilian, that is.

Here I am, 2 days away from enlistment. And the weight drops on me like a brick. And it made me think...

Have I made the most of my free time? I know it's end is near, 2 days to be exact. Hours away from saying goodbye to slacking around, waking up late, sleeping late, chilling at coffeeshops, pursuing all kinds of hobbies, reading and learning stuff... Have I used my time so that I won't regret it once I go in?

Then that thought triggered another.

I'm feeling this when I'm leaving one lifestyle to enter another. What if... what would I feel when I'm leaving this LIFE to enter another. In this case, I know I've got two days of 'freedom' left. But in the second case, I don't know. Nobody knows when their 'Callup' will be. But it will come.

Have I made full use of this life? So that when I enter the other, I won't have any regrets? Right now... I don't think so.

And to bring this entry to an end, I'd just like to apologise to everyone I know... from every group of friends I know.... Let bygones be bygones right? No grudges...

Ferdaus/Suadref/Pey/Pedas ... out.